i have recently lost at least 30 hours of my life to multiple failed attempts at writing a new blog post. this is not for lack of ideas, i have plenty of those, i just have issues with completing tasks... weather it be finishing a blog post or folding laundry i have no problem starting, but i have issues with finishing. i don't mind washing dishes, i just cant bring myself to wash the last few, hence the sink is never without clutter. this minor personality flaw comes with few consequences aside from finding myself with no socks when traveling because i could not bring myself to pack a suitcase in one sitting.
at this point i have accepted that i will never finish any of the blog posts i am currently working on, so here is the basic gist of the ideas i have been playing with.
stockholm syndrome, also known as "captive bonding" is a psychological phenomenon that is known to occur when a hostage feels empathy for the very people who are holding him or her captive. in the case of patty hearst, she went so far as to participate in future crimes with her captors, the symbionsese liberation army.
the idea behind this unfinished and now abridged version of the Stockholm syndrome essay is that i find my relationship to filming an "out of town" project can be similar to a captive stockholm syndrome sufferer. this idea has developed from often being asked how was my trip to "such and such" place. although i may have recently filmed in kashmir, that does not mean i saw anything other then the airport, our shoot locations and a hotel during the night. when making a project on location, it can feel like your trip to a foreign land is more like a kidnapping. upon arrival your are expected to go straight to work, and work until the project is done and then you're dropped back at the airport and sent home. at some point during the kidnapping you begin to feel empathy for the people depriving you of sleep and social activity; in my case its the director and producers.
reason for not finishing this blog post:
the whole idea doesn't make much sense since i get paid and i show up on my own free will.... but that will be the last use of my free will until the job is over. it also make me sound like i don't appreciate the work, which i very much do. i'm just trying to poke fun at work / travel and point out that it's far from a vacation.
i started a blog post on how awesome spike jonze' film "adaptation" is. it's a movie so great that it makes you want more... it inspires you to do research on multiple components of the film, everything from the books "the orchid thief" and "story" to the looking into the "making of". and it forces the viewer to ask, "what the fuck is up with nick cage!". how can one man be so good of an actor and so bad of an actor in one life time.
watching it inspired me to sit down and read robert mckee's book "story", which has been unopened and in my possession since 1998. as usual i started this task, only to get to page 5 and then was thrilled to learn of the audiobook version. the audio version has been extremely useful to me, by putting me to sleep while on airplanes. inspired by listen to "story" in my sleep, i continued on to reread david mamet's book, "on directing".
"on directing" has excellent production advice for storytellers as well as a guide to what is problematic with mamet's style in his filmmaking. he is a singularly visioned director with a philosophical storytelling approach, for better or worse. his technique can be brilliantly simple and austere but when used with such vigor and alignment with his specific philosophy it can be dogmatic and not much fun to watch. i also cant believe how much he bad mouths producers in the book and he keeps making up on the fly scenarios regarding "a whore house". can you imagine sitting in a college class in 2016 and having a guest lecturer repeatedly say things like, "ok! let make up a scenario right now. a guy walks into a whore house and what is the first thing he sees?" . I could be wrong, but i don't think it would fly.
i then thought it would be funny to coin the term "mamet-splaining" in the spirit of "mansplaining". i recently heard the term "mansplain" and found it really funny. it's a word used to epitomize the belittling and condescending syntax a man will often use to "explain" something to a woman with. i certainly hope i don't "mansplain" too often. i definitely "mike-splain" on set, which is running up to a crew member, speaking really fast, usually making no sense, giving no chance for that person to respond and then running to the next task, leaving the person i talked to in total confusion.
reason for not finishing this blog post:
it just goes on and on and on. it starts as a tribute to the great film, "adaptation", and unravels into me talking about "mike-spalining". WTF?
i actually like suicide squad and felt a need to write a blog post to defend its honor. while watching the film, i had no idea what was going to happen at any moment or how long any scene would go on for. it was consistently cluttered and confusing, which i enjoyed. it felt like the graphic novels like the dark knight, killing joke and works by frank miller and alan moore. in the late 80's there was a very adult genre of comics which were morally confusing and difficult to read in the visual sense. they were intentionally expressionistic in the design of the layout and it was unclear which panel should be viewed first. i found suicide squad felt like watching one of those graphic novels of the era.
i also listened to an incredibly enjoyable podcast while watching suicide squad. it was about a woman who runs a harry potter fan site and another crazed harry potter fan who has been cyber stalking her for close to a decade. for those who are interested, check it out. i only pressed pause to watch the jared leto and margot robbie scenes. i have been saying for years that "a bad film is just an opportunity for a good nap". maybe we as an adult audience are asking too much of a film that is obviously not made for us and just need to multitask and catch up on an episode of "this american life" or "criminal".
reason for not finishing this post:
i didn't finish this post because nobody believes me when i tell them i liked suicide squad and think i am joking... which i am not.
THE FINIAL CHAPTER
and that brings me to my feeling on the indie film, "the green room", which is............ i'm loosing interest in finishing up the blog.